Throw back to my first bujo post.
“Invest in yourself” – that has been and will continue to be a daily reminder.
Do not live your life worried about what others might think about you. Each moment you are concerned about the opinions of others, you lose an opportunity to live for your whole being. Isn’t that bonkers!?? You can literally stop yourself from doing things that make you genuinely happy simply because you are worried about the opinion of Sally (who you barely knew in high school but follows you on Instagram).
When I first heard the phrase “invest in yourself”, it struck a chord in me. I gave the phrase some good thought and realized I did very little “investing in myself”…which was probably why I felt completely burnt-out.
Long story short, I figured I should bite the bullet and give “investing in myself” a whirl.
So I started making time in my life for little things I enjoyed: walking outside, going to church, yoga, drawing, and reading. To be clear regarding the reading, I mean recreationally…NOT something written by Michel Foucault [side note: you’re cool Mr. Foucault but really not my type…someone let me know in the comments if you feel me on this]. After about 2 weeks of making time to invest in myself, I realized it was pretty sweet. It was not easy, and obviously took away my precious time to stress about random sh** to the point where I couldn’t fall sleep at night [insert eyeroll emoji] BUT it was definitely worth keeping-up.
In fact it was so worth it, I thought, “I should draw this phrase in my bullet journal to make it a concrete belief”. You know…so I could really hold my belief with both my hands.
…and I did just that [check-out my photo below]
After drawing it I thought, “I should really post this to Instagram. I’m sure there are people out there that need to hear this message!” And that’s when I froze…. What will people think when I post this? Maybe they’ll think I’m weird. Maybe they’ll think it sucks. Maybe they’ll unfollow my account! … I could go on and on. So instead of posting it, I chickened out and saved it as a draft.
The next evening I got home from work, opened my Instagram and saw a bunch of photos about #BellLetsTalk. Hmmm…wasn’t I promoting mental health with my message? Duh! So that day gave me an excuse for posting… less people would think I am weird for sure-zies. So I hashtagged #BellLetsTalk, wrote a caption that resonated with me, counted down from 5, probably shouted “OMG OMG OMG!”, and pressed “share”!
Wow…stress city…all over an Instagram post!
Why was it so hard to do something I thought was a good idea? I thought people would think it was silly I was posting pictures of my drawings…like “that’s not what Instagram is for”. Well it turns out, that IS what Instagram is for – and it makes me SO happy when people say they are inspired by my drawings!
Morals of the story:
1. Spread the love and it will always come back to you.
2. If you want to be happy, actually DO the things that make you happy even though that can be hard as f***.
3. Invest in yourself and one day you’ll see it was worth it ✌